Blog #9: Scheming on 2025
I know you can turn your luck around at any point, but I do like new beginnings for the opportunity to refocus and examine my habits. I don’t have anything really monumental on the horizon. I feel like I made a lot of big changes this past year by going back to school and taking some responsibility for the ennui I have felt about my career and potential. My goals for this year:
Write to my grandma twice a month - my grandma is on an adult LDS mission and she has requested handwritten letters. I bought Yonkers deadstock pink stationary from Ebay, and I think I’m going to buy her an Instax mini so we can both exchange photos of our outfits. I learned how to throw Fits from my grandma, she has very colorful and eccentric style. It’s something we bond over. Several years ago she gave me, one out of almost thirty grandkids, a coveted brown fur coat she had owned for decades. She has three adult daughters and I’m not even the first grandkid, so it was kind of a big deal. I treasure it. I feel grateful to have a good relationship with her, and she is my last living grandparent.
Get better grades this semester than I did last semester - I surprised myself and did a lot better than I expected. I have a lot of room for improvement and even before careful reflection, I know there are a lot of things I would have done differently. I am very grateful that I’m not spiraling over grades. Going back to school has been a lot more challenging than I expected. Any school is easier than any job I’ve ever worked full time, but being in a student-teacher dynamic with other adults again and not knowing where I stand in comparison with my peers really messed with my self-confidence. I was worried that even if my rational brain knows that grades are not a major inhibitor to future employment, I would still feel inadequate and sad if I did poorly. I was relieved to feel relieved and not panicked.
Find an internship or summer opportunity that is cool - Let me be clear, I am not opposed to the corporate grind because I am what? Money-minded. That being said, I want to explore my opportunities and I would love to love my job. I was speaking with a peer after finals and he was discussing his efforts to get his dream job. He asked me what my dream job was, and like a coward, I gave some kind of nothing answer. I’m still not really sure, but I owe it myself as both an ambitious young woman and the sole guarantor of my student loans to try and make it as worth my while as possible. It’s in my ten year plan to have a cool person job. I am leaving vague email job in the past.
Trio Trip - Me, Bonnie, and Andrew are long overdue. The last time we traveled together was in 2022, when we all went to Las Vegas, and it was only a 36 hour trip. I want to go international. I want to wear a big stupid hat 😭. I want to be kicked out of line by a bouncer because we look like American Volturi (read: less skinny than Italian Volturi). I am thinking European and green, perhaps the Motherland? I would also love to do the beach thing full stop with both of them. We need extended QT.
Establish a relationship with a general practitioner/be proactive about my health - I shelled out for student healthcare after being more or less uninsured for first 8 months of the year. My parents insurance absolutely does not work in this state, and I turned 26 in May. Thank God I did shell out because I had two major health scares within a month of my insurance kicking in. I don’t want to be big drama about it, but it did strike fear into my heart because I have never consistently been to the doctor, I almost didn’t this time around, and I actually love my life and want to live as long as possible. I will focus on preventative care and get my money’s worth!!
Write it Regret it, Say it Forget it - Stop gossiping over text. It’s bad for my spirit and it’s frankly reckless. Keep it contained to girls’ bathrooms.
Live within my means - I got a lot better about this over the past year and finally recovered from my disproportionate spending after I left my sales job, but I need to keep improving. I want to travel and have fun at all costs, but I need to temper myself especially because I will have student debt for the first time ever. I’m counting on my mans to supplement my lifestyle this year, I encourage everyone out there to go and find a man who can do the same.
